I haven’t had the chance to sit and write stuff like this often. Mostly because it requires me to be still and think through my thoughts. I struggle sometimes to write an unorganized version of a post though most of my writing is not structured at all. But today was an exception to that.
One morning this week I was graced with quiet time. I mean a real one. One where I had time to be intentional about the time I spent. I so often spend these moments doing one last thing before I spend time with God and then when the time comes I’m rushed or hurried and missing the time to be still before him. Resting isn’t easy and realizing that some things aren’t that necessary isn’t either. With young kids moms are apt to thing that a lot is necessary.
However, this particular morning I wanted to be intentional about working from a state of rest. So I took my mind off of what the day needed to get started and how my kids needed to be up for school at 7 and I took advantage of the quiet indulging in God. And I found myself struggling….to put yesterday behind me and get on with today. Why do we do that? We have a Savior who says give me all your burdens and worries and fears but yet our need to be in control warrants that.
Let all that I am wait quietly before God, for my hope is in him. Psalm 62:5
This verse stood out most. Especially the all that I am. This made me think of making myself available to God-because I can’t give all that I am if half of me is there. With my whole being I need to submit to God and wait for him. In quiet. In hope. Allowing him to search the deepest parts of me and find that I’m all in.
And it went perfectly with my morning because God doesn’t want me to leave him at the back burner. He wants to be first. He desires intimacy with me in the sense that I am before him waiting, listening, speaking. I was so determined to put him first here and wait. Even if the words didn’t come quickly.
The Greek word for wait is perimeno with peri meaning all around and meno meaning to remain or abide.
-Regardless of what’s happening around me my soul will remain steady steadfast all in before God.
Waiting is hard especially when suffering is evident but trusting that God created this process called life, family and motherhood and that his plans for us are for sanctification through the process can keep us from the temptation of guilt and heaviness. When we remind ourselves that our roles are important because HE called us to them and that we are raising image bearers we can kick Satan and his talons to the curb. Be encouraged to wait on God in whatever season you are in. I encourage you to fall in love with God and his word for your soul and for the souls around you.
But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint. Isaiah 40:31