I first started blogging in the midst of a heartbreaking situation that gripped my life. Divorce. I needed something to help me make better use of my time and my thoughts. We all know how that could be. It was an everlasting emotional and messy scenario all together. I cried, I prayed, I fought the fear present issues and complications. I wrestled with regret of not listening and confusion of where to go next and I looked to different individuals to pull me out of my despair. In this journey, I sought the Lord more than I ever did before. I detached myself from society and honed in my role as mother and servant. It was very challenging because I had to face some realities about myself and grasp on to some truths about God that changed my life.
I transferred my membership to the church where I now attend and discovered new relationships and healing. I found a family of believers that are truly amazing to me and have aided in my growth through fellowship.
I almost feel like I met the love of my life while walking through life with my head down. My story of meeting my him is very peculiar and I thank God for sending him to me. He challenges me to run after God more and to be a better person all around. Besides God, nobody has taken more time to understand and know me and see the world through my eyes. I love you babe.
So this year has been a hard one. One that has left some deep scars and memories. But on the contrary, I remember sitting on my couch on the eve of new years 2011 crying in desperation for God to change me. I didn’t know what was coming but I prayed for his grace to hold on and get through. You see, I’ve learned that that magical man that I thought God was, was not so. I’ve learned that as a christian, I was called to suffer, and struggle-not that God does not bless me either because I’ve never had my gas or electric shut off, never been late on my rent and I’ve always had food on the table and have even gotten promoted on my job-not to mention he’s kept me and my children safe through the tragic times of this year. But I realized through this all that God sits Higher than anything or anyone and he was right there all along. When I wanted to be shielded from the pain of my actions he shielded me….while I was running. That pain has allowed growth.
So I haven’t been posting for a few weeks because I wanted to take that all in-that year after year God is and has been gracious and good to me.
In 2013 I am embarking on a new journey with my family. I’m not making an resolutions but I’m praying that God would allow me to grow more and learn more in servanthood, motherhood and maybe even wifelyhood. lol
I will be taking a few months to serve my family and redo this blog. See ya then!